heyyloo .
currently awake . cannot sleep at the moment . huh .
alooot of things happened just now . i really mean alot .
kaykay but i will explain the basics first .
kaykay in my love life , there happens to be TWO guys .

First guy : 16 this year , to me , he is okay luhh . sweet and understanding . let's just name him ALI (i won't reveal his name)
Second guy : 20 this year , to me , sweet , charming and romantic . but however not as understannding as first guy , ALI . let's just name him DIDI . (i won't reaveal his name either)

it's just my complicated life .

THE STORY

DIDI was not close to me at all . as in we do see each other downstaires everytime . but don't usually start a conversation . but i knew i had feelings for him . but i knew that IT won't come true . because he is 20 and i am 14 . age diff is 6 yohh . kaykay . then one day , if i recall it corectly , 27102009 . my friend's birthday . i was still at district , the place we usually hang out at . it was around 11pm . then they (DIDI,GOD BRO,SIS,BRO) were playing with lizards . HUGE ones . OMGEE . scared duhh . then we changed topic . about our piercings . i have a smiley . then DIDI asked me if i had extra barbell , then i borrowed him one . MY NEW ONE . then he used it . then my phone vibrated , it was ibu . go home tome . i rushed home . forgetting about my BARBELL . i only realised it after i was on my bed . i asked EVERYONE for DIDI's number . i got it . immediately i text him , saying that he could use it till he didn't want it anymore . then he said okay and we started chatting . eventually we reached to the death question , DO YOU WANT TO BE MY GIRL ?? it was like so expected . if i recall corectly it was around 2am++ .
and the next day was schooling . i just answer YES , cause i do have feelings for him . jyeah . we were together since 28102009(my day) . and still counting .



ALI . we knew each other since i moved in . well i had feelings for him . i was shy to talk to him . so i sent him a letter . like very direct . then suddenly one day , he ask for steady . i REJECTED .